Losing the Battle, Winning the War

Truth is powerful. But truth also hurts. Have you ever felt like you were spinning your wheels? Or like life is pushing you backwards while with all your might you are pushing forward only to be slowly dragged backwards?  Or buried in your circumstances?SnowstormThese are valid feelings. I feel them even as I type. I feel exhausted. I feel weak and my body is in pain. I feel like I am losing the battle in life. Yet, in Christ the war has already been won.

How can I reconcile my feelings to the truth of God’s Word? It goes back to perception. The pain and weakness are feelings that are real and hinder my life in the physical world; from my perspective. The truth is the Word says the weak are strong-through weakness. There is nothing in the Word I can find that says our life here is a failure or we can’t be all we should be because we don’t obtain the promise of healing on this earth. Read the scripture below. The truth is compared to many of my fellow believers– my life is easy.

Hebrews 11:32-38 And what more shall I say? For time would fail me to tell of Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, of David and Samuel and the prophets— 33 who through faith conquered kingdoms, enforced justice, obtained promises, stopped the mouths of lions, 34 quenched the power of fire, escaped the edge of the sword, were made strong out of weakness, became mighty in war, put foreign armies to flight. 35 Women received back their dead by resurrection. Some were tortured, refusing to accept release, so that they might rise again to a better life. 36 Others suffered mocking and flogging, and even chains and imprisonment. 37 They were stoned, they were sawn in two, they were killed with the sword. They went about in skins of sheep and goats, destitute, afflicted, mistreated— 38 of whom the world was not worthy—wandering about in deserts and mountains, and in dens and caves of the earth.

So do I just accept the condition my condition is in? By no means, I expect to feel better and do all I can to be well- that I may continue to fulfill the calling and purpose of God in my life. I do believe in miracles and that we were healed by His stripes. And I will not be dismayed. Yes, sometimes I want to quit- but ultimately I cannot. All I have to do is dwell on the Love of God and the sacrifice of Christ. Keeping a mind renewed in His Word is utmost importance for us. Hebrews 11 gives the truth and perspective most Christians don’t want to think about. We want an easy life. I want an easy life. But we are to be more than conquerors –that means something has to be conquered. You can’t win a war unless there is a battle. We don’t even have to fight our own battles as Deut. 3:22 says You shall not fear them, for it is the Lord your God who fights for you. It is only when I attempt to fight MS or other challenges (them includes every enemy) in life on my own that I am losing the battle.

I wrote the following poem shortly after I was diagnosed with progressive Multiple Sclerosis back in the early 1980’s. Some would look at me and see someone who is not healed.  I know too well where I came from so I am thankful for the abilities I do have. One of my neurologist’s said, “It is a miracle you are still walking.” I was supposed to be bedridden in the 80s according to the doctors. The progression of the M.S. was constant back then. I don’t want to be healed just to not suffer. My heart is to serve God and others with my abilities He has given me.


The Best of  Me

Multiple Sclerosis is the disease that’s getting the best of me
It’s very difficult to walk and even more difficult to see
My arms are hard to move, doctor, tell me why
Someone please hold me while I cry and cry and cry
Please, doctor, give me something for the pain
But that’s like asking the weatherman to stop the rain
I can’t move my legs, doc, what’s going on
This can’t be happening, I’m still young
I don’t need any help- get that wheelchair out of here
But before you leave, will you please wipe away my tears
My legs are paralyzed and that wheelchair serves as a friend
M.S. I hate you, when my body dies I’ll live but you’ll end
My faith in God grows stronger daily and will carry me through
To an everlasting life, one without pain, one without you
One day this body of pain will be set totally free

M.S. I decided you cannot have the best of me,

I am giving that to Jesus, the One Who died on Calvary
My life is secured in Jesus, no one can take it away
One day M.S. will be cast to hell forever—where it belongs
As for now, I’ll give my Best to Jesus and sing a joyful song.

My friends, no matter how you feel, do not give up HOPE. Do not Give UP. Not Ever. We are just journeying through this world and we have much work to do. We are to be Light in world in the midst of the darkness and whatever challenges we go through. God uses us for His purposes even when we can’t see it.Blackboard with the text Never give up

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